Spiritual Methods to Finding Answers

I am going to be brutally honest with you. Over the years there have been many nights I have cried myself to sleep because I was so lonely. I felt empty. The storms of life raged around me, throwing me from side to side with little time to catch my breath. Emotions overwhelmed me. Situations got the better of me. Somehow I would get out of bed in the morning and put on a brave face but it was hard. Very hard.  In one of my lowest times, I received a book called "God Calling". I read the introduction to find that it was written by two anonymous ladies from England. They had been going through some really tough times too but managed to find their solace in God. One day, as they were praying, they began to find they were getting answers back! They wrote the answers down every day, gaining comfort and strength from these divine messages.

Now, I'm not a Christian. I didn't know whether there was even a God or not, but I really wanted there to be. No one, not even me, had been able to get me out of this mental hell hole. Maybe God could, whoever He/She/It was? I decided to give it a try.  So one evening I put on some spiritual music and I sat, pen in hand, waiting for all this divine inspiration to come pouring out of heaven and onto my page.  Nothing.  I would begin writing something, only to scratch it out and realize it was just me making things up.  Maybe God didn't like me?

I tried a couple more times, but it actually got frustrating. I found it was all I could do to stop myself scribbling violently all over the page. Why wouldn't God talk to me? Maybe there was no God after all. I gave up and put the book back on the shelf.  Again I was back to crying myself to sleep, drowning in my thoughts of loneliness and despair. But this time, a new idea came into my head. Why don't I talk to God or whatever the heck is out there? So I just bawled out my sorrows. I cried and cried and cried out my heart into the Universe. Everything that bothered me, I cried and complained and lamented about it. I let all that anger and misery pour out of my heart to a God I didn't know was there or not. It seemed to go on forever.

And then it happened.

A thought flashed through my head like lightning: get your notebook. My pen hit the paper and wouldn't stop. There wasn't even time for me to compose any words or think at all. It was as if a dam had burst and the words just gushed out of the pen onto the paper. I was still crying and could barely even see through the tears in my eyes, but soon I was laughing, happy, joyous.  I had no doubt these were divine words.  Over the coming days and weeks, whenever I felt so bad I just couldn't take it anymore, I didn't despair. Sometimes I cried, sometimes I didn't, but I always set out my pen and paper and talked to whoever was out there.

This is a tiny selection of all the writings that I recieved:

You know Me. In the stillness of your heart, in the love of your heart, in the joy of your heart, you know Me. You can choose to turn away, but you cannot claim ignorance, for every day of your life I call to you. The pain you feel is My absence. You are led to attribute it to other reasons, but know that all pain is lack of Me. Invite Me into every thought and you shall know perfect Love and Joy without end.

I AM the Light of the world. So any follower of Mine, any lover of Me, must be the Light of the world also, a perfect reflection. Humbleness before the Throne brings authority over the Earth by the powers of Love. I designed not the Earth for evil ones to rule in confidence. Love is the most powerful force, as all men are searching for it. Be what the human heart seeks and you shall transcend all limitation.

Love is the order. Do not become bound in religious doctrine and regulation. Religion is a stepping stone to align the will through discipline, to control the unruly destructive force within. Once your will is to please Me, you have passed through the school of religion into true Sonship. You have sacrificed yourself fully and now you shall gain yourself in glory and strength and Ivine power.

You are not alone. Pave My footsteps into your heart with prayer so I can come in and dwell in Love and Joy forever with you.

Do not think of the future and burden yourself. Perform only what needs to be performed today in the highest manner possible.

Do not fear. Even if you are burning in the deepest pit of hell, keep calling on My Name and I will be by your side. It may take all of your strength to stretch your hand up to Me, but make that your highest priority, your ONLY priority. I will rescue you for you are my precious child. Have no fear.

Stop focusing on your flaws. Focus on your Christly centre, focus on your holiness. Glorify in it, give thanks in it, give thanks from it, receive into it, nurture it, care for it, focus on it and watch it grow. Do not focus on your sin. At this stage your consciousness is in relative darkness, so it cannot easily get rid of your sin. Darkness cannot banish darkness. Only light can banish darkness. Let the Light in you connect with me, the Great Light, the source of all Light, until the Light rises higher and higher within you, until the body is full of Light, and it shines from your eyes, your words, your everything. Therein lies the power.

These messages managed to lift me out of the deepest depression I have ever known, to finding my purpose on Earth and learning how to live a good life. God writing can do wonders in our lives if we open ourselves to the power. I only hope it can help you as much as it has helped me.

- Iman Mohiki